In a world where all pretends to its own power,
I surrender mine to the divine.
Where a world of illusion made me think possible,
A choice, a stand, an opinion that meant anything,
I simply let all go, what’s the point in pretending
for another moment?
Without Purpose, why pretend?
The pretending is what hurts? I cannot unlove you.
I cannot choose my heart’s intended subjects,
It was just there, waiting to be found, discovered, uncovered…
Well, you dug it all up and then ran for the hills…
Did you hurt too? Or did you just forget me,
As I sat powerless, to let you go?
Without your mirror, can I still find love within?
When you chose another, you took something,
My lifelong faith in love. God is love, so you took him too,
As you ran for hell, making your way home
Through a gate I could not bleed into for you.
When you left me here, you didn’t stop to choose,
You reacted through fear, and chose fear for us both.
When you chose the beast over the divine, did you know it?
I stood in the flames of hellfire,
Letting love lap at my sorrows and joys.
The flames took all.
You took all. And with you, life worsened.
Now without you, life worsens.
Where are you? My heart ponders daily.
Where is our time together going, as you run into hell without me?
I wonder how you did it, ignored the Sun?
You went too far, you took too much, you never looked back
to watch me burning just as much as you were.
In her you found the nothing you sought,
I hope your misery can no longer be tied to me,
And that you become as powerless as I,
As your heart stirs, as you awaken, to what you have done.
In blaming me, did you get to stay asleep?
To her.
To you.
To love.
To God?